My Mood At This Moment - Accurate!

Date: 1/27/2009

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back' attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude is such that 'Enough is Enough'.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

Perhaps...it is just really...me

In life, perhaps there isn't such thing as 'right' or 'wrong'.

Just a few months ago, my brother had gotten a driving ticket of $70 penalty for driving on the 'right' lane. Ha! Hm....I wonder what would be his penalty if he had driven on the 'wrong' lane. :P

Sometimes, we need to do the 'wrong' thing at the 'right' time in order to make things right. But at times, if we are doing the 'right' thing at the 'wrong' time, we might tend to make thing worst.

So...I am a little confuse at times.

Am I normal to be confuse?

No wonder the world is now in chaos....because everyone seems to be confused of everything...or is it just me?

Perhaps...it is just...really...me.

To Blog for the sake of Blogging....haha

Blogging....a thing that I've haven't been doing for quite a while. Maybe days were passing by so fast that I don't really have the time to record down the goods and the bad days....to me...they are all fast days...haha....

Yesterday was really a hectic day, phone calls kept on coming, non-stop....it was like all the events had happened during one day....and I wondered what would happen if I was not in office yesterday?

It's another long day today....have to work until 9++ p.m.

That's life...

The Unreasonables

Hmm....sprained my ankle during last night, heavy rain today, my berlingo dear is in the service centre for her 10k servicing....meaning, I have to limp my way to the bus stop, change 2 bus, cross 2 to 3 overhead bridge and spent about 1 hr + before i can reach my home sweet home....

Well, do the above sounded terrible?

Of course....

But then....

While i was limping towards the exit, my boss' car passed by and offer me a ride after seeing me in this state...

Well, does the above sounded like heaven?

Of course....

But then..... YOU ARE WRONG if you were to say YES....cause that's just the beginning of my NIGHTMARE

Haiz~

Same topic again...and I wanted to stay silent but I guess my temper ain't really improving too much especially when he kept emphasizing he had done all the duties that we've done and he simply cannot understand why we cannot do what he think we should be doing!!!

Urghhhh!!

It was indeed a wrong move when I wanted him to do some soul searching on his behaviour....believe me, that was the WRONG MOVE (and i admit I do need to soul searching...for telling him the truth and nothing but the truth) and it trigger off more verbal abusement from him..(in which I thought I ought to get used to it after taking them for the past 10 years but I guess life have been too easy for me during the past few months that my immune system is getting weak....ha ha ha *bitterly*)

Haiz~ this issue is just never-ending and I wonder if i can continue to get my job done if it is going to continue for the next 10 years....what should I or we do in order to make him see the entire picture? To make him feel more positive about things around him?

I bet he would just forget all about the argument that we've had earlier and continued living his life carefreely because he think that he is right in everything while here I am, blogging my heart out in order to make myself feel better and telling myself that I wasn't wrong in the first place (am i wrong or not? I am really confuse sometimes....GOD....HELP ME PLEASE!!!) and I am doing my job well....Gosh.....that's just too difficult....

I guess that's just how it should be...coz...that's life....no matter good or bad, happy or sad...you'll just have to live it....I shouldn't be bothering about it (in fact i still am) coz I did really do soul searching in everything i do....

Just part of cultivation....stay strong nonki....stay strong.....

HOOSH!

Happy or Sad???

Just finished watching the show 'Protege' with my baby sis...and frankly speaking, all these while before we watched the show, we were being informed that Daniel Wu is playing a very bad bad character inside the show and we were a little disappointed because both of us happened to like him very very much!

Well, blame us for not paying too much attention to the content of the movie when it was first introduced in Singapore because all I know is that this movie is all about drug dealings. After watching the show, we realised that Daniel Wu is a good guy after all (Phew!) but then again, the storyline is very sad...felt so sorry for the female role. Haiz~

Bro is coming back from Hong Kong tomorrow and I am still debating with myself about whether should I be driving to the airport to pick him up. Haiz~ why always throw this kind of situation for me? Had a feeling that I am still not to it...but then, another part of me wanted to try it out...then again...I am getting a little chicken out. Haiz~ what should I do??

WHAT SHOULD I DO??? TO DRIVE OR NOT TO DRIVE???

*pulls hair*

Dunno why I just don't have the guts to try out new routes....it seems that I am afraid something bad would happen....maybe I will try to be more daring for new route after coming back from India....counting down....how many more days to go??? Let's see....*finger counting*

....another 41 more days to go.....ohhh....feeling a little bit scare and yet excited about the trip....

Imagine...1 month without TV...haha...is that what I am worrying about? Hmmm.....

I think I can still manage....hahaa...wish me luck then...hehe....

Okay...getting sleepy....

Jaa Ne!!

To all 'True' Lovers out there....GANBATTE!!!

Spent two nights finished watching the 16-episode korean drama 'Foxy Lady'.

Unbelievable huh? haha....

Watched 10 vcd (i.e. 10 hours) on Sunday (from 5 p.m. till 3 a.m.) and 6 vcd (i.e. 6 hours) during last night (from 8 p.m. till 2 a.m.)

If you asked me, well, this is another good series to watch but I don't really know why the preview (on TV) was trying to mislead the viewers by showing that this is a drama emphasizing on sex more than true love (As according to what the preview in TV: The female role was trying to gain as much sexual experience in order to pen down articles because she was working as a reporter/chief editor for one porno magazine)

A bad move....bad bad preview editor....

Why would I want to purchase this VCD even when the preview was not really appealing?

Well, as I was browsing through at the VCD shop for one Taiwanese drama, I accidentally saw this VCD and decided to read the storyline and realized that it was totally different from what the preview had shown.

Furthermore, since there was a 20% discount on the already quite cheap pricing, I decided to purchase it.

In fact, didn't really pin too much hope when I was watching the first episode since I don't really know who the male roles are and only knew that the female role was actually the female role in another korean drama 'Chun ri' (which I've only watched the first episode because the storyline was so slow-moving despite having Zhao Ren Cheng in that drama).

BUT....

I WAS WRONG....

The storyline is good after all...

There are alot of scenes that really touched my heart....very sweet...nice and romantic....but does such guy really exist in this world??? I wonder...

Nevertheless, really enjoyed the content and sometimes, although reality is harsh, no harm indulging yourself in a world where TRUE AND SELFLESS LOVE really EXISTS.....at least during that 16 hours of VCD watching....I do believe that it has once existed....hehee

Gosh....having an urge to re-watch the drama...hahaha.....*must resist temptation*....

Okay lah....maybe I am getting a little negative on the issue of 'True Love'....but I still believe a good relationship won't last just because of 'Love'....it requires lots of effort put in by two people who would cherish this 'relationship' due to 'love'.....

SO,

TO ALL 'TRUE' LOVERS OUT THERE.....

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GANBATTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hated this feeling....

This is the first post since I've turned 30.

Had a little argument with my brother just now while we were on our way home. Felt very bad partly because I knew this unhappiness could be avoided if my EQ were a little better during that moment, but alas, like always, I screwed it up again!

Feel like crying now... in fact, my eyes are already swelled with tears as I am typing this blog. What is wrong with me anyway? Haven't I learnt any lessons from all those ordeals of mine?

Bad girl....

Lousy girl...

Never liked myself anyway....no wonder I keep making so many mistakes...why would I treated myself good if I never liked myself in the first place? Why am I going through all these emotional ordeals again? Hated it...hated it....hated it....

Why couldn't I just admit I am just one stubborn mule who is always in denial?

Why couldn't I?

I am really sick of my own personality...what can I do to change it? Of course, only I myself can change it...to make it better or make it worse.

But at this very moment...I just HATED MYSELF...for doing all the incorrect things....hated this feeling....