Energy Level: LOW...

Today is the last day of the annual long holiday.

As a matter of fact, didn't really enjoyed the holiday since I've been feeling unwell almost everyday. Low in energy...feel like a pig though...didn't really want to do anything but to lie on bed/sofa watching television everyday.

Didn't sleep a wink last night until 5 a.m. this morning. After our morning prayer, I helped mother a little with the cleaning since the children were coming this morning for their new year celebration. Just the sweeping of the floor was already too much for my back. What is happening to me anyway?

Low...low...energy....

Slept from 6 a.m. till 9 a.m.

After the celebration, took a quick nap at the sofa.

Some of my friends also came to the celebration...yep, they are worrying about my driving phobia and keep on encouraging me to drive me. I know, what can the worst be happening even if I don't really know the directions? Just keep on driving round and round Singapore until you are forced to remember those routes. Hmm...of course I am aware...but then, how to explain when it is 'phobia' that we are talking about?

For example, I hated green/red beans, so to me, eating those food is a tough task for me despite everyone keep saying that they are good for me. Of course I know they are good food, but then, I just couldn't enjoy myself eating those food.

Likewise, I like the taste of food with lemongrass..but my sis hated it. The taste is wonderful to me but not to her...and it would be hell for her to eat any food with this particular flavour and I couldn't imagine why people would hate this?

Therefore, I guess the theory can sound reasonable and agreeable...but when it comes to the reality...different people have different way to handle these kinds of mix feelings.

Some can handle them well while some cannot. Some needed longer time while some don't.

Nevertheless, I have to admit I really needed their support though...Thanks gals!

I will try my best to overcome my phobia completely.

By the way, I did some driving last night and this afternoon.

Just finished watching one movie "Yu Guan Yin" from the preview channel.

Sad story.

Reap what you sow...that's the conculsion I have.

Human being can be really cold-blooded at times even though the blood running through the system is warm.

I don't understand why.

Karma?

Retribution?

Everything happens for a reason?

Sad.

Frankly speaking, don't really feel like starting work...but then, that's reality. We need to work.

Keep having strange dreams lately....not nightmares...but just pure strange dreams. I guess my mind isn't really functioning that well...hahaha...

Good night!

Happy Lunar New Year! Oink!!

Happy Lunar New Year!!!!! (Oink! Oink!)

Basically, I've only slept for less than 2 hours since last night. My eyes are getting a little sore and teary since this morning...and yes, vomited a few times during this morning.

I guess it was due to the fact that I've driven back from Choa Chu Kang to Hougang during 2 a.m. ++ in the morning (with my brother as my directory) and thus, creating that 'stomache flu' after I've drown myself with a cup of coffee in order to stay awake at home.

Very excited...so excited that I couldn't feel my hands and legs during the entire drive. It has been a while since I am able to use gear 5, so not getting used to changing from gear 4 to 5 and then back from 5 to 4. To drive at 80 or 90km/h might be too slow for most professional drivers....but to me...that was simply....too fast? Haha! Well, at least I thought I am very comfortable with 50, but then, I was wrong.

This morning, as I was driving to TG (despite not feeling very well) , I realised that I've the tendency to speed when there's no car in front. That's bad! Bad bad influence....haha! Went into the multi-storey car park that I've never been before and I had to climb till deck 4 in order to locate available parking space. The climb was a little tedious because it was a circle slope so we have to go round and round and round.......well, another little breakthrough for me during the 1st day of the piggy year....hehe..Ganbarimashoo!!

MY NEXT CHALLENGE: To drive my berlingo dear to Leng Kee for her 1st FOC servicing on 27th Feb 2007....phew!

Finished watching the Korean drama vcd -- My Girl -- during this afternoon. Frankly speaking, didn't really pin too much hope on the content of this drama after watching the first preview on cable TV....then the 2nd set of preview managed to capture me and lure me into wanting to know the actual content of this drama. Furthermore, my friend happens to have this set of VCD, so just borrowed from her....haha...

CONCLUSION:

Highly recommended and I think the content is even better than 'Goong'. Haha! Laughters and tears non-stop from episode 1 till 16. If anyone is reading this blog and watches Korean Drama, why not try this one....nice drama!

This and that

Continuation of my unfinished fanfiction is one resolution which I've not completed in Year 2006. Getting such serious writing blocks and it really frustrates me out! Urghh!!!

Having some crisis in the company...I am wondering what will happen when we are back from our LNY holiday? Working life will never be the same? Of course, I sincerely hope that they will come out with a win-win solution.

But then, how can two people of two extreme characters be partners during the past 23 years? Give and take....but if one keeps on giving while the other one keeps on taking...how many more 23 years can they last? That's why, the crisis arise...

Nevertheless, everything happens for a reason, perhaps it has to be that way....who knows?

Two more days to go before the LNY begins and I've not yet trim my hair. Don't think that can be done during the next two days...haiz~

I really need some miracles.....can anyone spare me some?

The Good and the Bad....

One good thing -- I've finally driven my berlingo dear to Kumon during last Tuesday! Yeah!

One bad thing -- due to the lack of 1-hr coupons and not wanting to use 7 pcs of 1/2-hr coupons (trying my luck by using only 3), I've gotten my first parking summon of $10! Well, that goes my 1-1/4hr of pay cheque of that day.



One good thing -- My stomach flu is getting better...and I can eat and eat and eat and eat and eat...

One bad thing -- The fatigue is killing me for the past two days! Watery eyes....constant yawning....low energy....and I guess, due to the excessive eating for the past two day, I ought to get my weight over that big 6 in the weighing scale....



One good thing -- Had gotten our bonus, two months for this year.


One bad thing -- No news about pay increment. Will it happen during this year? At least adjust it a little...what's the use of getting a title of 'Operations Manager' when the pay cheque doesn't really tally with the title? Gosh! Am I a little too demanding? Well, I didn't ask for that post in the first place....so, hmmm...am I a little too demanding to request for a pay adjustment that suits my job title?



One good thing -- I am feeling sleepy right now....


One bad thing -- Do I really need to wake up the next morning?

What's wrong with me????

Now I know the reason behind those butterflies within my stomach

I am suffering from stomach

Gosh....cannot eat this, cannot eat that....or else...pain...pain...pain....hungry....

Finally, today is Friday...end of the week (of driving) and my brother's turn to drive...haha....*bitter*...haha...*bitter* when will I be able to go from places to places (not just from home to work and vice versa) freely with my berlingo dear? Don't really have the guts yet...lousy me

15 more days to go before the arrival of the annual long break...how time flies....after May this year would be my 10th working year in the company...what will happen to me in another 10 years? I wonder

No news about the bonus and not sure if there will be any increment during this year

It is now very quiet in my room...I am sitting in front of the temporarily laptop typing out this blog...even though the contents are meaningless...but I just keep on typing....running out of words....but i just keep on typing...as though all the typing is able to fill up the hole deep down my heart

Why am I feeling so depress right now when I shouldn't be feeling depress at all? Why do I have such negative feeling? Have I taken the wrong turn without realising it and just keep on moving...on the wrong track? I am not sure about it

Maybe I just need to close my eyes.