Never Ending...

Problems are always never ending while one's at work.

But isn't that the reason why we are at work? To solve problems?

Ha! But not when one's sick and STILL needs to go to work.

*DOH*

What kind of working environment am i in? Well, i cannot grumble too much coz aren't I suppose to be typing business faxes/e-mail right now instead of updating my journal? :P

Ahhh...spent the whole morning doing all those never-ending work, still some pending work left on the table, shall do it later. My lunch is simple, a cup of cereal *DOH* forgotten abt the medicine, no wonder I couldn't get my gastric back to normal with all those untimely medication time slots.

Who to blame but myself??

Urgghhh!! Must remember to take the medicine later...

*chanting away*

Okay, enough of bad things, now something to look forward to, tonight is one night with lots of nice shows, let me see:7:00 p.m.

-- Last episode of the Taiwanese Drama,'THE SWITCH'9:00 p.m.
-- A nice segment on 'WIERD NATURE' 10:30 p.m.
-- Last epsiode of an old local drama about volleyball...

Phew! What a night, hopefully everything would go smoothly as predicted.

*STOP GIVING ME ANY UNEXPECTED SITUATION* I AM SICK OF IT!! I HAVE LOTS OF THESE for the past few weeks...ENOUGH is ENOUGH okay?

*HUMP*

Let me see wat else, oh, i have bought the Karaoke VCD of Stefanie Sun's latest album 'Leave' at Carrefeurr (is that how it is spelled?) for only $16.90.

WOW! What a catch man!

Oh, ya, also bought Vaness CD album, but never get the chance to listen to it. Okay, have uploaded another chapter of my fan fic, and shucks, have to crack my brain for the next chapter and also the other hyd fic.

Gotta have my medicine now or else i won't recover by next week and i really miss those heavily cooked, spicy and solid food.

Have been eating nothing but porridge, bread and milk during these days. Had a plate of RICE last nite (WOAH LA~) but it all came out during this morning (u know wat i mean) in a very painful way...urghhh...better curb my eating temptation for the time being...

TTFN

I dreamt of him again...

Yep...

I dreamt of him again.

In my dream,

its like we seldom got the chance to talk to each other,

but i would always hear his conversation.

We were so close and yet so far away.

Perhaps its fated.

In my dream,

he still looked the same as the last time we've met.

In my dream,

I still felt much loved even there wasn't any conversations between us.

In my dream,

I still felt ever oh so insecure,

that he would leave me during any moment,

perhaps that's why i chose to leave him in the first place

...Yep...

I dreamt of him again

Anti Vacuum Valve

Because of this item, my company is incurring a loss of SIN$30,000.00 and more.

Damn the irresponsible supplier, is this how they are treating their long-term customer?

I wonder if there is any 'business ethnic' in their dictionary.

Although this loss wasn't too big that it would pull down my company's business, I am talking abt using $30,000.00 to buy a heap of RUBBISH!

Most of the complaints (for some we managed to escape) require compensation, which would only increase the loss that we incurred. And after opening up those rubbish, we realised what kind of RUBBISH they had given us!

Urghhh!!!!! Due to this problem, my collegue had bruises over his hands for opening up thousands and thousands of caps, which that BAKA ^&%$ supplier had them glued tight, thinking that this was their so-call 'reinspection' service??

I REALLY DON'T BELIEVE IT!!!!

Been trying to search the net to see i could find any information that could do much help to the current situation (which i think the possibility is not too high), it is a tough job, but i guess this is what every business people had to face when doing business.

We tend to meet good customers, good suppliers at times, and vice versa. Hopefully one day, we would be able to get rid of that heap of rubbish and at least get back half of our loss.

Bad Monday Morning...

Once again, I had been *defeated* by my boss' 'FUTURE TALKS'.

I WAS IN TEARS...AGAIN?

haiz~ lousy lady...but everything seem to be back to normal again after I dashed out of his office...but i know, IT IS NOT OKAY!

Was it just me or wat? A typical victim of cowardity which almost had my life ruined (hasn't it already done enough damage to my life? Hmmm...)

Right now, I feel badly-wounded (mentally), not by those 'FUTURE TALKS' but by myself.

My own crowdity had restricted me from pursuing my dream...and now it seems so far far away from me.

I tried staying 'AH Q' about it...but REALITY IS EVER O SO HARSH!

I know that I am now doing something which I don't like, and yet I NEED TO DO IT because I NEED IT FOR SURVIVAL...

*DOH*

Isn't the reason SO CLEAR? Can i make the best out of the worst?I couldn't stop the tears gushing out the moment i think that I AM SUCH A USELESS person...i couldn't...I want to face my fear...but instead, I am avoiding my fear in one hand and not doing anything to get rid of it on another hand?

I am already gotten defeated by my emotion even before i could start doing anything to deal with it [damn it] WHAT AM I THINKING ABOUT?

Perhaps, I am just a pathetic lady in the world of self-pity....

*SHIT* WAKE UP!! NO TIME FOR ANY MORE SELF-PITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*DAMN IT* ............&&^%$#....................KYAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gatherings

Been to a gathering just now -- one of my secondary schoolmates is going to Hong Kong for good.

Because, she had found a good match there.

Good for her.

Out of the 5 of us, 1 gotten married, 1 gotten ROM and 1 is planning for it during the end of Year 2004.

Hmmm...typical gathering among girls eh??

Well, whenever i attended gatherings, where friends (who seemed to be meeting each other once in every two or three or even more years) are obliged to update their lives to each other...it seem to me that they had successfully moved to the next stage of their lives, while i am still stuck with the same stage (nothing to update...hahaa)...

well, I am happy with my current lifestyle, but why do i still feeling hollow?? I WONDER...

(that's why I can never sleep early after each gathering)

*DOH*

So what if i have nothing to update???

*DOH*

So what if I am still a MISS and not a MRS-TO-BE?

*DOH*

So what if I had dumped three bowl of rices into my tummy, watched 1 VCD movie and 1 epsiode of 'Big Wing' and wrote an on-line journal at 3 a.m. in the morning when both my eyelids are planning to disobey me??

[ooh...I am begining to like HOMER more & more....ho ho ho]

HEY! I AM NOT A SAINT!

So, just let me vent some frustration here and everything will be fine until the next meeting, where I can get to carry those cute babies of theirs!

Heee~Okay, i am really getting sleepy now...guess this is one good advantage of keeping an oneline journal --Dun have to write on the diary until my fingers got sore...hehehe

Nighty Night!!

My Signature...

As i was signing all those commission invoices, I realised that my signature wasn't uniform at all.

More problems waiting for me to figure out as I read through all those business e-mail corresponding, and my brain isn't functioning as well as I want it to.

'I AM HUNGRY'...this is the signal my brain had given me since this morning...i wanted to buy some mee hoon for breakfast...

'URGHH..THE DISTANCE IS SOO FAR'...this is the signal both my legs were telling me.

What should I do?

The phone kept ringing the whole morning, mostly from...MY BOSS...telling me to do this and to do that...not to do this and not to do that...I know I should be obliged to do all those things, but I am really getting very frustrated upon hearing his voice.

Why? Just a feeling...that's all.

" WE MUST NOT BE AT THE LOOSING END!", "NEVER TRY TO BE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF"...those are the phrases that I kept hearing from him, I HATE IT!

Perhaps I am not suitable to be in business line? I dunno, I keep thinking about my future, would i be able to take over the business and keep the company running when they retired?

I am really clueless. What will happen to me in 10-years time??

I kept pondering...would anybody give me a hint what should i do with my life????

Lunch & Brain

Had my first lunch during this week. Yum! Yum! Couldn't believe that I had actually skipped lunch for the past three days, taking only 1 meal a day.

Sometimes, I, myself don't understand what I am thinking about. As usual, lots of work pending on my table and trays, couldn't bothered too much unless they are important *ick*

(staring at one very important document on the table)

... O_o"...

...thinking...when would be the RIGHT TIME to pick that piece of paper up and read it...

My brain seems to go off-line earlier and earlier these days...on Monday, I was able to make it through the 8 hours, Tuesday, it stopped functioning around 4 p.m., yesterday, it was about 2 p.m. and now? During LUNCH TIME??

KYaaaaAaaaAaa!! Shucks...guess i really need a vacation (at home).

The next public holiday would be falling during early November and it means I still have to struggle for another 1 month ++....urghhh...

CHOTTO MATTE! My bro would be out of the 3 months BMT on 27th September...

Yipee! WHAT TIME IS IT???

ANNUAL LEAVE APPLICATION TIME!

Ta da...as according to my bro, the ceremony starts around 3-4p.m. in the afternoon, meaning, I can SLEEP LATE!!

HO HO HO...

unlike last time when we were sending him to the BMT, I had to wake up extra early in the morning (around 5 a.m -- worst than normal working days) and stayed in that island until 1 p.m. in the afternoon.

Also, during his convocation, we had to wake up around 7 a.m. and do all the clappings *yawns* in the hall when his turn on stage was already way way over...

*Sighz*

Another half more hour to go before my lunchtime is over...would i be able to get myself going through all the brain-cracking time and had the content of THAT PIECE OF PAPER translated??

hmmmm....let see how lor...hehehe

Smart guys...

Just finished reading vol 11 of the manga, itakiss...and i am still stuck in the world full of Irie Naoki....

A world full of COOL..HANDSOME and INTELLIGENT GUYS...hehehe...So sweet...what would become of me after reading the rest of 12 vol????

I don't think I would be having such good luck like Kotoko-chan...hehehe...*tsk*tsk*...so many things to do and yet so little time!!!! the *$&^# radio is not receiving the frequency properly again...

urghhh!!! got to go and adjust or else i would die from getting those noise pollution it produced rather than music...

Multi-Tasking...

Can you believe it?? I am actually multi-tasking myself right now!

hehehe~ It's Monday again...my boss called (hmmm...I should be the one calling to ask something) and told me that he would only come to office in the late afternoon coz he is not feeling too well

...ohh...but...hey...i am at work right now! Shouldn't play play wor...hehee...so..here i am, multi-tasking myself...and work myself to the fullest in this 'lovely' monday!!

oh ya...had watched the first 2 disc of 'Lavender' during Saturday (my sis borrowed from her friend). As according to most of my friends, its another plot that would make your eyes teary...hmmm...in fact, some of the plot in the first two disc looks kinda similar to 'endless love'...the background scenario and how the actress dressed up.

LOVE STORIES...what would our life be without them??

Tsk*tsk*Better get back to my e-mail reply to my supplier...jaa ne

*continued*

KYAAAA!!

Had taken a test and to think my real age is 30 years older than my chronological age...wouldn't that make me a 55-year-old lady???

Urghhh!!! Guess, I really need a change in my lifestyle...

It's Saturday Again...

One more hour to go before I call it for a day.

But wait! Today is the first of the lunar eighth month and I haven't prepared the speech draft for tonight's regligion prayer...urghhh...doushite??

Really have to pull up my sock in this area...let me see...would be reaching home before 1 p.m...then it would be LUNCH and TV TIME (YIPEE!!)...then, hmmmm...oh ya...promised serene that i would buy itakiss manga this afternoon since most of the programs (after those wonderful animations) are the repeated ones today....then...a little nap??

NAHHHH!!! Would take up too much time...guess i need to at least get myself at the table with those books by 3 p.m. and then i would have 4 hours for preparation (do i need that long?? hmmm)

Nevertheless, I NEED TO PREPARE!!!!!!!! or else...kinda feeling quite irresponsible ne?

Wish me luck then....hope tonight i would not go OFF-TOPIC (AGAIN!) like my last attempt...haiz~

Just uploaded another chapter of my hyd fics to the fanfiction this morning...oh...my hydfc inbox is already 80++% full, would it survive through the weekend????

Hmmm....

Well, its always hard when you have lots of things to choose.

Must be wondering why am i still hanging around here when i know that there are accumulated works waiting for me to clear?

It's 11:15 a.m. right now...45 minutes to lunch (which i intend to skip it)... how time flies...okay...feeling accomplished because i had finally GOT HOLD of the SO-CALL style thingy

...hehe..sooo many to choose from (Phew!)....getting quite comfortable with the current format...heheheall right...REALLY have to get back to work now...

*Continued*

My current mood on September 06, 2002, 14:23hr:

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At this particular time you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a 'way out' but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquility and contentment.

Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!).

You don't feel as if you can go it on your own anymore. You don't want to be taken for granted. You need to be recognized as a 'caring person' and it could be that you are searching to establish a relationship, not necessarily with someone new, but with that someone special who could feel the same way as you do.

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That's one damn accurate test, which made me wonder how did those ppl do that??

*sweatdrop*

Always feel good to let myself tell me how I am feeling at certain moment in BLACK & WHITE...i had this feeling that these few days, I would always take the test whenever I am feeling STRESSED OUT or TIRED...

must try it when i am feeling abit happier next time...OH BOY...just finished translated four faxes to China...hope that phone of mine won't ring until Monday...

i am really done with the work for the day...now, its e-mail replying and net surfing time...(hopefully)...haha..this morning, when i heard this song from my receiver, i tot why is she singing 'zhu da ge' (pig brother)...later then realize that it should be the 'main song'...but she really had it pronounced like 'pig brother' wor...hehehe